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Fun fun...waiting every day till 7 pm to see him.
It is ok though, very worth the wait.
I joined twitter today...dont know why...just needed something to combat my bordem. :)
Let's see how well that works.
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Made it here safe! I am super tired but super happy to start my life with my husband. I wont have much to say as I am so tired, but tomorrow, I will blab on and on. Had a pretty rough night, but am going to get sleep. Will feel much better in the AM. Good night all
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Thank you to the friends that wrote me and always read my blog! it is so awesome to see you all are still here!
Today, pardon my french, fucking sucked. I went to the doctors. Found out, I'm at the highest weight I have ever been. I was so appauled...I am in shock. I know I have not been active...i've been struggling with so many things, but I did not realize how bad it got. I basically have myself now on this strict plan to lose all the excess weight I have gained. Tomorrow I head for the base my husband is stationed at. Since he has not graduated yet, I will stay off base, but the benifits of being there means I can use the gym anytime. I plan to go at least 2 times a day. I really dont have much of a choice. I need to get back to my weight, to where I feel healthy and comfortable. I think i will be able to do it pretty quick if i devote my time to working out. He can't stay with me on weekdays, so I will basically be working out a lot during that time. I am going to stay active, and I have cut out the main things from my diet that I KNOW have made me gain weight. It is going to be tough, but I am going to hope I've got support...and will meet some wives there that can befriend me...and maybe we will work out together. I plan to do cardio classes...and a lot more. I know this will be easier than I think, because he is already in the Army. Him working out gives me the motivation to want to work out and be beautiful. I just hope that I can be again. Right now, i feel discusting...and ugly..even though I know I'm not..
I am very excited...cant wait to see him. I am going to miss my son very bad...but will be back every month to visit. Then, after the summer, we should be set up in our new post and I will bring him. I cant wait. Although, i do have to go through the courts and set up me having him out of state and new visitation for his father. That wont be fun, but I have no choice. I just hope he doesnt try to pull trying to take him from me...that wont happen. My son is 7...and has been with me all his life. His father JUST sent me a check for about 2 months worth of child support about a week ago. He is behind over 4 years. So, I doubt it looks to good on him. My husband supports me and my son financially, insurance...everything. I doubt I will have much trouble bringing him along. Plus, Im the mommy. :) Ok all, I'm heading to bed..tired..and have a long day!! Hopefully, I'll get on and write from a hotel tomorrow night. Good night all
Current Mood:
energetic energetic
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I probably wont be getting back to most messages, as I have been MIA for a LONG TIME. So, anyone that wants to write me, please feel free to do so now, I will return.
I'm sure everyone wants to know what the deal is..
it wasn't pretty.

The perfect husband I was always talking about starting treating me like crap. He started dividing money, doing things on his own, and barely calling and never writing. For months, I haven't been online. I never got a thing for Valentine's, and that is what broke the ice. I didn't want to speak to him at all. He became enragingly mad, and yelled constantly on the phone. I didn't know what to do. I ended up taking some time away. Finally, and this is skipping 2 months, I decided to go to him. This was right before my birthday. April 12th. He melted. Tears came to his face. He knew he messed up, and bad. Why did I go? A week before, I had a heart attack. Yes, at 28, I was so stressed out, I had a heart attack. When he called me at the hospital, for the first time in months, I sensed the fear and love. This man had been begging me to come to him for months, yet I wouldn't. His attitude made me so mad, I didn't want to be around him. I mean , who wants to be around someone yelling at you all the time right? The thing is, I was wrong. He was so mad, so frustrated, so upset...because his wife wasn't there. The only person he has in the world. The only one that loved him, he had felt left him...gave up on him. I didn't though. Thank God neither one of us believe in divorce. Things happened when I got up there, and it is not all good yet. Although, he has and is making every effort to make everything perfect. He has not raised his voice once. He treats me like a Goddess again. We went to see a therapist. One lady told us, just out of the blue, her and her husband used to argue at first because she wouldnt come to base. When she got there, everything was fine. I found out, this is a common thing in the Military. Men, are nothing, without the women that stand so proudly behind them. My love, was lost without his.
I am back now with him...well, back at my home for only a week then off to a new base, but I will not leave his side again. He agreed to anything I wanted. I said marriage counseling and a psychologist. He agreed no hesitation. He is a good man, and I love him. You will get many more stories. Give me time though, I just returned. ;)
Current Mood:
accomplished accomplished
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My husband will NOT be kicked out of the Army. He is going to be reclassed into a different branch of the military. We still will be moving to Texas, but now, with the jobs that he is being trained to do, i think that he WONT be getting deployed! At least one year I will get to be with him, because the schooling for this, takes a year. I am very proud of him. I didn't know if he would be kicked out of not. Obviously, no. I don't think we will be able to uproot our family with the position until he gets stabled in his line of work. For now, it will be me getting a small apartment, and him going to school. So, i will live right around there, and he will come home to me every night. I hope that is how this works..I miss my husband a bunch!
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Poll #1519504 Forgiveness

Do you believe that if you have done something wrong in your eyes, but are truly sorry and seek forgiveness, you will get it? (this is more for the religious..if you believe in God or a being)

Yes
5(83.3%)
No
1(16.7%)
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What was your last random act of kindness? Do you believe in karma?
I gave a homeless person a 10 dollar bill that was standing on the side of the road. And yes, I believe in Karma.
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Ok, I haven't had time to read comments or messages yet, but I will. So, please do not think I am ignoring you. I have had a bit of a hard time the past 2 days. My husband called me and told me that they might be kicking him out of the Army. He hurt this other foot. He has been on profile a couple times, and they aren't willing to start him over. This is obsurd being as he is physically built for this. As a Marine, his boot camp was 20 times harder than this...and I know this one isnt as bad. He just has had the roughest time in the Army vs the Marines. If he does get sent home, I will still stand by his side,although, i know that is not what he wants to do. I really want to talk to him right now. He called ...and said that i could call him back in like 5 mins, well, 5 mins goes by he calls me and says they have to put their phones up. I was really sad. I wanted to talk to him more. I miss him a lot. And those 5 mins I was to busy to talk this time, i could have spent with him. Now I am very depressed and want to cry. I hope he forgives me. I didnt know that he would have to put it up right away. I love him and would never chose anything over him. I thought i had more time . :(
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I have the worst headache right now. Although, I have to go to the gym. I promised myself to go with discipline. Ive already done some cardio workout at home. Yes, i devulged into ordering one of those tv things...that flirty girl thing. Honestly, it isnt that bad. At the end of day 7 using it, ill let you know how "well" or "not so well" that thing works. I was going to take the kid to the gym today but it is to late..so i will go on my own. At least im going. :: sigh :: I'm so tired. Oh and...my doctor referred me to the wrong doctor...so i still dont have anyone to help out. Great huh. Be back soon!
Current Mood:
moody moody
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So i took a nap. I believe my phone went off 3 times during it. I guess i need to learn how to put it on silent. Im so tired from walking around all day today. Got my son tons of new clothes!! and i bought my mom a coach purse. She deserves it...She has stood by me since day one of being sick. I love and appreciate her so much. I'm goin to lay down and write later..yeah i know..i just got on...but ill be back!
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